Opinions

Oh written late at night angry blog posts, I have missed you so much. You always seem to be the perfect outlet for my general distaste for stupidiots. I haven't been really annoyed at people for diabetes related reasons in a while, so I really should have seen this post coming. So today's topic that is causing me annoyance involves people's opinions of my diabetes. Let's begin.

If you want to have an opinion of my diabetes, you need to meet some criteria. Let me make this a simple chart of questions and answers, so if you are even attempting to think about having an opinion, you can easily figure out if you are able to have a valid and respectable opinion of the state of my diabetes at this very moment. It's even color coded, just for you!

Just follow the arrows and I promise you'll find your answer in less than 45 seconds!

I made this fantastic and high quality (and by high quality I mean made in pencil, erased repeatedly, traced over in pen and sharpie, then scanned) poster for anyone that has ever been given an unsolicited opinion about your diabetes. It will take the potential opinion giver maybe a minute to figure out whether their opinion should be said and will save you from a lot of annoyance. I really wish that I had thought of this sooner because someone today had the nerve to tell me that I was a "crappy diabetic" because my blood sugar was high. (387 to be exact.) I'm not sure what qualifies as a bad diabetic, but I'm pretty sure that having one high blood sugar during the day does not mean that I'm a "crappy diabetic."

And after he told me that, we then continued to argue over why he can't have an opinion on the matter. I told him that unless you have an actual knowledge of diabetes that is more than a) you used to get low blood sugar occasionally and b) you know that 387 is high, YOU CAN'T HAVE AN OPINION ON MY DIABETES. I attempted to repeatedly explain that no matter how hard I try, I can never have perfect control of my blood sugar. The highlight of this whole argument (for me, at least) was this: "You have your medical devices which do the same thing as your pancreas, so you should obviously have perfect control of your diabetes all the time."

Excuse me? Has your brain ever even thought about the fact that diabetes affects every single person with it differently? I can't just magically tell my pump to figure out my exact I:C ratios, ISF's, and basal rates and then correct everything for me. I go to my endocrinologist every three months for a reason, in case you didn't realize that.

Well now that I have ranted, I feel much better. These posts are really therapeutic. I really do recommend doing this to get out your anger.

Moral of the Story: You probably can't have an opinion on my diabetes. #sorrynotsorry

(And now I should probably go back to doing my homework.)

Weird

Life has been kind of weird lately. My mom went to the hospital twice because she has a kidney infection (don't worry, she's fine; she just went twice because there was some miscommunication/ misinformation involved with the first visit,) my friend freaked me out all day on Friday, I have a lot of schoolwork to do, my CGM has been giving me some really weird numbers lately, and this week has just been stressful. (But isn't every week stressful?)

I haven't been really productive homework-wise today. (I need to right 6 theses for practice for my AP World History Exam, I need to read over my AP Biology notes, I need to study some math stuff so I can finish my test on Monday, I have to read my AP World History textbook, and I need to work on some stuff for robotics.) I have, however, been productive, internet-wise. I have read through all 517 blog posts on my feed reader. (I may have neglected reading posts for about two weeks. Oops.) It was nice reading everything and getting caught up on everything happening on the internet. Today was pretty much a day for me to do absolutely nothing important and just think. I hate doing anything in silence, so I've been listening to one of my playlists on my phone. I've been kind of obsessing over 8tracks lately, so I put up a condensed version of my playlist on it. Below is the magical widget to my playlist if you don't mind listening to my really weird music taste. (And image credits for the cover go to Delaney Allen.)

Feeling Weird from meow_its_sarah on 8tracks Radio.

In other, more diabetes related news, I went to the endo on Friday as well, and I have an A1C of 7.3% this month. (Apparently, it's the same as last time!) Both my nurse (I only see my actual endo once a year, the other three visits are mixed with my nurse and dietitian) and I were surprised that it was so low, considering that I keep running high in the evening, but it was definitely a pleasant surprise. My A1C always seems to surprise me, so I wonder why I haven't been expecting this kind of thing to happen. We also talked about how the Dexcom G4 was finally approved for pediatric use, and how I have been using my CGM "illegally" for about a year. She asked me how I liked it and was slightly surprised when I told her that I don't take breaks from wearing it. (I guess most teenagers don't like wearing it that much.) We also changed my basals and ISFs because I had four really weird ISFs and she wanted to get those down to only one or two different ISFs and then we brought my basal up, since it was so low before to compensate for my high ISFs. (One was one unit to 35 mg/dL.) Well, that's pretty much it when it comes to my endo visit.

Moral of the Story: I'm hoping this week will be a little more normal. (And normal does, in fact, exist!)